Shades of Life!!

While suffering from an illness, when someone comes over to tell you not to worry and that you are on the road to recovery; you force a fake smile as if conveying a message in secrecy that even though you value the concern and optimism of your well-wisher, your feeble being is so wretched by the tremors of pain that even the distant hopes of recovering does not stimulate the rush of blood in the veins underneath your pale skin.

When you embrace a failure in life, people tell you not to lose heart, to be firm and to keep going with the same spirit. Failures are never nice or easy to accept. Imagine yourself sitting all by yourself on a vacant bench on a sad evening after loosing a third match in the row. An elderly acquaintance walks over, puts his hand on your shoulder to console you that the next match belongs to you for sure and you cannot help but smile a bitter smile because in the hearts of your heart only you know that you tell yourself the same thing over and over before every match.Though I do not disagree with the people who claim that failures are a means of teaching a lesson. And as someone anonymous puts "when you loose, dont lose the lesson".
And another that "I didn't fail, I just found out 20 ways which don't make it to success". However, excessive failure becomes a burden on soul with the consequence that rather than deriving a lesson, you begin deriving bitterness out of it. Sometimes words just fall short of healing your wound.

When you are going through stress and turmoil, when life seems to have closed all its doors on you and when even the slightest spark of hope has been ousted from your life; you often find yourself encircled by some considerate people who try to revive your hopes by telling you constantly that "Times will change, Good times are just ahead of you". These sentences are rephrased; shuffled with synonyms, supplemented with fiery words and enhanced with emotions. And you, you listen to those words with a mind; that is empty and incapable of processing any kind of stirring thoughts, and eyes that stare blankly in the vacuum. At that time, words of that sort, uttered by a bunch of stable and contented individuals seem so illusive. You
cannot turn your back to the fact that those entities must have once gone through an analogous situation, but the obscurity of the dark phase render you so dispirited that even a pile of inspirational anectodes leave you unnerved.

Aforementioned are different shades of life, each of which is intense and at times excruciating. The fact of the matter is that sometimes a blanket of hopelessness envelopes you in such a manner that all the assurances and guarrantees go in vain. But life is not meant to stop. It continue to move on with the strides so typical of life. We smile, we cry, we laugh, we shed tears, but despite of all our apprehensions we never standstill. Nevertheless, "words" preserve rich sources of motivation and uphold a great healing power. Only words, at times, can lighten up one's soul. Life is abstract and regardless of the fact that we lead our entire lives to resolve what an enigma life is, we can never elucidate life in a nutshell. Our definitions of lives are merely reflections of our experiences. The works of different writers, poets, philosophers and people from other walks of life in this respect are undeniably noteworthy but perhaps are sufficient only to summarize a section of it. Our job is to keep living life, to keep lifting our spirits amid the helplessness and fundamentally to continue moving forward. Its not as easy as it sounds, its hard, possibly harder than one can imagine as starting afresh is always harder than execution in the first turn. But we are left with no other option, are we? We have to be through in
any case. Sometimes, sometimes we should stop by and think for a moment to question ourselves if we are being fair to ourselves or have we started to demand so much from life that we have rendered our lives synonymous to depression. Not always the things that we long for so desperately fetch happniess for us. At this point, I am reminded of the lyrics from one of Chris Daughtry's songs, "Home"
"Be careful what you wish for, Coz you just might get it all, you just might get it all".

Its Time to Let Things Go- Song!

Writing is my passion. And song writing is just a part of it. I'd love to become a song writer one day. I am not a singer neither can I play any instrument . But I love writing songs. And who knows one day they get tranformed into a full fledge song InshAllah:-).

When you cry for no reason
And it happens to you all four seasons,
When nobody hears you screaming
And you get teary eyed when you see others beaming,
When you find yourself at the crossroads
And you know your life is at a threshold

ITS TIME TO LET THINGS GO

When you know what you want
But you know that you cant
When you are sick and tired of your luck gone rotten
Carrying everywhere a heart that is so broken,
When all the faces around become so cold
And you know that the spirits that once resided within have been sold

ITS TIME TO LET THINGS GO

When you try so hard
And still roll back so fast
When you struggle to make things happen
but feel like living in a world, forsaken
When your life is akin to depression
And you are longing for a moment of jubilation

ITS TIME TO LET THINGS GO

When moving on is harder than staying back
When people forget to pay back,
When you get up everyday hoping to have a good day
But encounter dejection straightaway
When you disappoint those you never wanted to
When the guilt inside starts killing for doing so

ITS TIME TO LET THINGS GO

When you wonder if your wounds will ever heal
If you'll get any response to your appeal,
When you cannot take it anymore
And you want to run to a place that is so remote,
When you start beleiving that your dreams have faded away
Hearken to my words and shake these thoughts away

ITS TIME TO LET THNGS GO